hello

well as u all may noe alr diary-x completely died, so this entry was supposedly to be at my own blog but i hav no where else to blog.. so here i am.

anw my cerebrum is just bursting with info now so i have to get this out of my system!
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i think people are v interesting. as in the whole human race itself. my fren told me this: things do not change, only people do. at first i used to think that.. both of them change. cos well we alws say that 'things change blah blah blah...' but over these 2 mths i've come to realise that actually, it's the change in people which brings abt the change in things. let me use a simple analogy. visualise a pail. it's stoning on the floor. does it change? no. imagine if u pour hot boiling water into it. does it change? yes, it probably melts. (esp if its lao pok) so.. the pail has not changed, it's the water which has caused it to change - an external event.

hmm well change is a constant.. but i shall nt digress anymore.

as we grow thru the various stages in our lives, we change. people just get.. more complicated. it's like i dunno lah. i mean in pskl u say sth like 'i dont fren you' the nxt day the 2 of u are frens again (childish!!).. secskl you'll prob hav a cold war or sth for perhaps a week? then hopefully u can even out the creases. but it's like these kind of wounded frenships.. do not necessarily mend well. (i have personal experience!)

then as u grow older and enter society.. there's not realli anyone u can totally, completely trust isnt it?! (i sound skeptical!) i mean.. u can but it's at your own risk. sometimes u dont ever know when you're betrayed. it's like.. hiding a knife behind ur smile! (direct translation from chinese)

anw, it's easy to start a relationship but difficult to maintain one.. in whatever kind of relationships. did u come into this world with 100% assurance that you'll get along well with your family? it took the effort of both u and ur family to make things work.. and have a happy family. do u go to skl sometimes and think, how did i make friends? why do u spill ur secrets to this person but remain platonic with another person? i think friends are.. special people in live cos u are nt in anyway related to them yet sometimes they may be closer to u than ur family.. as in how u tell ur soulmate some stuff but dont tell ur family...

but then again, when the wrong people hear those stuff.. eh things dont reli bode well. and sometimes u just get so disappointed.

dont call me weird but sometimes i think that its good to not noe someone that well.. so u wont know abt her/his worst habits or what and wont be so restricted in what u do or say. hm isnt it good to hav a bunch of frens who u hang out with and stuff? u dont have to noe her like completely lah. its good. seriously. cos i dont noe my best fren that well. but well we trust each other completely. (or at least i do) close yet far.. now that's what we shld achieve in life :) being too close with ur frens just leads to conflicts.. having 'hi-bye' frens isnt exactly that nice either.

nvm. hmm we often have inner conflicts with ourselves!.. isnt it? like how we often think abt whether we shld say sth.. whether we shld buy a or b...

okay nvm i havent got much time to blog alr! hav to do stupid gp hw.. i realised my blog entry is so disjointed but nvm as i said they were all giam chai-ed into my cerebrum..

oh yeah and congrats everyone! we survived 2.4! (or rather i did. heah passed by 7 secs! that's cool lah -___-")

anw that entry was so serious. haha. different from the usual lame me???

- liwei